I did not get anywhere until I stumbled on the fact

that I needed a technique, a method. Before that technique

began to work for me, I found only confusion concerning the

the different kinds of truth. Seeing is believing . . . . . .or is it?

How do I know for sure that something is true? Before I practised

a technique, truth was something to be found "out-there", in the

world. That truth came in different shapes, shapes like these . . . . .

If I hold an apple in my hand, I can see it, touch it, smell it

bite it, taste it. I know what an apple is.

I saw that this kind of truth is based on direct experience.

I thought of a country I have never visited. How do I know it is there?

people have told me about it. I have seen photos or programmes on

the TV. I believe what I am told by others, and, I can test this by

going to that country. This kind of truth is based on trust.

I saw that we agree, mostly, to abide by laws and codes of

personal conduct. We give power to others to enforce these

arrangements. I note that science provides us with much that

I cannot personally prove or disprove (without great difficulty).

I enjoy the benefits that science brings. I defer to authority

figures in all walks of life and I accept their truth on faith, and,

because it is convenient . . . . . . . This kind of truth is based on agreement and force.

But who knows what is going on inside my mind?

Who knows what my feelings are like, or if they are true?

I saw that there was some huge mystery inside my world of

feelings and I knew I had to find out what it was. I saw that

feelings have a continuous life "inside" of me ( whatever a "me"

was ) . . .  So it dawned on me that I must watch them continuously.

By watching my feelings all the time, regardless of what they

were or how uncomfortable I became, I could get past the

censorship of my own mind. The censorship in my own mind

allowed me to see what I wanted to see, but did not help me

find out what was true and what was not. Watching constantly

became my technique. Instead of looking for truth "out there"

in the world, I looked - constantly - at my own feelings.

I can tell you about that and about the map I made

after I tell you about Arnayon . . . . . . . .